my first and last, my all and everything

You're the light at the end of the tunnel 

The beacon fire in the dark 

The glimmer of hope and truly the meaning of my life
I say this with all of my heart

You are the only one for me 

Year to year, in words and deed 

In all this chaos the trace of clarity 

You are the only one I see 

My first and last, my all and everything 

You are the one
 

When dusk falls and obscures the sky 

You're the shine of the Northern Star 

No dead of night can fade the brilliance of your light
I say this, holder of my heart

You are the only one for me 

Year to year, in words and deed 

In all this chaos the trace of clarity 

You are the only one I see 

My first and last, my all and everything 

You are the one
 

You are the only one 

In the heart of winter the comfort of the sun  

You are the one, my love

My love, you are the one

(Sentenced - You are the one) 

Happy Valentine's Day, J! You mean the world to me.

And also to all my friends - I love you, I miss you, I need you in my life. Without you all,  I wouldn't be the same.

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Nothing special to write. I'm having a flu - thanks to the lovely fact that it's colder inside the house than outside <3... that's just so wrong!

Yesterday - welcome meeting at the university. got my timetable. Mondays - just 2 hours of school in the evening, Tuesdays-Thursdays - 2 hours in the "morning" and 2 hours in the evening, Fridays - just 2 hours in the morning. not too hard, except for the French course that I'm so not going to pass as my head is already messed up because of English and especially Spanish. talking to J via Skype for almost 2 hours.

Today - my voice was gone. I had to escape the coldness (inside the house) by going out. so i went for shopping. I skipped the library tour as i felt terrible when i came back from the shopping session. fever - i guess not, but my voice is weak and my throat is killing me. talking to J via Skype over an hour with my lovely voice.

That's all for now. I'm a bit upset because of this damn flu and stuff. Tomorrow I have to feel better as it's time for Valencia CF - FC Barcelona.

J, I wish you were here now. Miss you, a lot.

new year 2012!

So as I've mentioned, I spent my new year's in Oulu, central Finland with my boyfriend. We stayed at his parents' house (= his childhood home) and I wouldn't have wanted to be anywhere else, or with anyone else. I enjoyed my time there and it felt so BLAH to come back home (I flew from Oulu to Helsinki yesterday).

As I didn't post anything while I was there, it's time for new year's wishes:

VERY HAPPY AND WONDERFUL NEW YEAR 2012! 

Personally I think this year is going to be different, amazing and memorable.

I decided that in this post I'm gonna tell about my trip to Oulu and I will post later about the year 2011 (like a summary or recap of the year). I call my boyfriend J here because it's easier to write.

Helsinki-Vantaa airport, where's the snow?

So I flew to Oulu on Thursday. It was just about two o'clock pm and it was already getting dark there (J's dad told me later that the bright time of the day lasts only about 2-4 hours during the winter months..) :D J was already at the airport by car to meet me. It was like I had come to another country - a lot of snow, darkness and it was a bit colder than in Helsinki.

During the first evening I met J's parents (and I can tell that I was nervous, it was the first time someone took me to meet his parents..!) and one of J's best friends with whom we went to J's brother's place to just hang around :) a lot of new, nice people! Later that evening we had a little incident - a little piece of J's tooth broke off and he doesn't - lightly expressed - LIKE dentists so he was a little distracted because of that. Luckily he got it taken care off already the next morning. On Friday after the dentist we went to Oulu's market hall for morning coffees. The market hall reminded the one in Helsinki (Hakaniemi market hall) - for example fresh fish, bakery products and some textiles/handwork products were sold there.

Later that day we saw a few of J's friends and went around some shops in Oulu with them. We also went to buy some wines and drinks and J and his brother made also jello shots (I hadn't tasted those before and now, no, can't call them delicious :D!) for the next day (NYE).

J's friends wanted to go for drinks and to a bar already on Friday but we didn't go along as we both were having a flu (as did J's parents too). I also wanted to save some energy for new years eve :-D

On Saturday we went to sauna, dressed up for party and went to J's brother's house to spend the evening. Eventually there were quite a lot of people and everyone was more or less drunk! in the night we left to another place to celebrate the midnight. 

We had some fireworks but not anything big (thank god, I'm afraid of them). The year turned to another by kissing and hugging with my own J and I wouldn't have wanted to be with anyone else :) happiness <3

We left the place after 2.30am, some people went to a bar but we went to J's brother's place with J to sleep and so on. In the morning a woke up to feel a terrible headache. okay I admit it was a hangover. At some point we went to J's parents' house just to spend the hangover-day by lying around and sleeping and eating and watching TV. That's how we spent Sunday.

On Monday we went to see the new Sherlock Holmes -movie with J's friend and his girlfriend. I liked the movie even though it was quite a long. After the movie we went to eat to an Indian restaurant (I hadn't tried before) and it was good, even though I wasn't that hungry after eating candies during the movie. On Tuesday we didn't do anything special except packing because I left in the afternoon. J drove me to the airport. I could have stayed longer because I had good time there and especially - good company! My flight was about half an hour late and my uncle came to pick me up from the airport. J stayed there for one night still, he comes home today by train. Now I'm just home trying to get rid of this stupid flu! >:(

24.12.2011

Merry Christmas to all the people around the world! :-) Hope you all have a good and happy day and some good company to spend this day with. For me, Christmas means warmth and closeness and important people around me. The only thing that makes me sad is that I couldn't spend this day with my boyfriend (as he's maybe the most important person to me at the moment).. otherwise the day has been like it's supposed to be.

The Christmas card I sent to my friends and relatives by email! it says merry Christmas in Finnish :D

In the morning we went to my grandparents' with my sister. My aunt and her boyfriend came too. Traditionally, we ate Christmas porridge (rice porridge with cinnamon) and there were also a good selection of all kinds of chocolates and peanuts! I ate waaaay too much of them :D but it's acceptable at Christmas! We spent about 4 hours with them and then I came to visit home before we went to my other grandma's place for the evening (with my sister, again). There were my aunt and uncle, my cousin + her daughter, another cousin, my mom's brother and our grandma. In the evening we ate the Christmas dinner and gave the presents. I got mostly chocolate presents (we had decided not to buy many presents for us, adults; just for the 4-year-old child). Dinner was good and we had some good time there :-) I also talked with my boyfriend on the phone and the call made me miss him even more. 5 days left without seeing!

Tomorrow I will post some pictures of our Christmas!

less than 5 weeks left in Finland... what?!

First I have to say it was soooo weird to realize a few days ago that I have only five weeks left here at home. I'm leaving on January 20th (Friday) and now there are just 4,5 weeks left! Not until now that it starts to hit me - I'm leaving my home (and the town Ive been living my whole life) and moving to another country for half an year. okay that's not so much, but for me the period feels like many years of being away from home. At least for now - I guess the time passes soon when I'm there, in Spain.

At least I'm now on my Christmas holiday. No stress because of school and not much stress because of work either. Its time to relax and take it easy... Well, of course I should start thinking about packing and the stuff I'm going to take with me and that I'm leaving here. My friend is going to move to my apartment for the spring, so I'm leaving all the big things here - my bed, my sofa, my table, my television etc.. so I don't have to find any place where I could take them. that's good. but I still have to find some place for the clothes that I'm not gonna take with me, for my books and all my personal stuff so that my friend gets some space for her things too. omg I'm sure the packing process will be so hard..!

the time when we still had a white Christmas here in Finland..

So last week, my school stress ended on Thursday when I got my last report returned. I was at work on Thursday and Friday and just hanging around with my boyfriend. On Saturday I had my last riding lesson (gonna miss ponies and riding during next spring!) and in the evening we went for a visit to my cousin's house with my bf. There were also my cousin's bf, my sister, my other cousin and her daughter, my aunt and my uncle. After the visit we went to celebrate my bf's friend's birthday and ended up to a nightclub in Helsinki. The evening was quite nice! On Sunday I just did a LOT of laundry.

Yesterday I felt like sleeping all day long..! I felt so so lazy and sleepy, but in the afternoon I had to do something about it. So, we went to look for some Christmas presents with my bf. I found what I was supposed to and we went to eat to a nice restaurant. I had delicious pasta with fresh tomato sauce, chili, basil and garlic (called pasta alla siciliana). After eating our stomachs full we came to my place and I just wrapped the c´Christmas presents I had bought and then we just watched TV and one movie. Nice, relaxing night :) Today I also felt so sleepy and lazy in the morning (depressing Finnish winter without snow - just rain and dark dark dark) but my bf got me off the bed because I had to accompany him to his train (via his home). He left to spend the Christmas with his relatives to western Finland :( We wont be seeing each other until next week's Thursday so there's over a week without seeing him - we haven't been away from each other for that long during the two months that we've been together. But maybe this is good considering the spring when we'll be apart for half an year (except the week that he will spend with me in Spain in the spring) :|

I don't even like snow that much but Christmas is not THE Christmas without it :(

Now my plan for the next days is just to clean up my home and see some friends that I haven't seen for a while. On Friday I'll go to my grandma's with my sister to make some preparations for Christmas. then I try to relax and enjoy the Christmas time and my last weeks in Finland! Next Thursday I'm leaving for Oulu to spend the New Year's there with my bf and his family :)