Day 04 + update

Day 04 – Your idea of the perfect first date 

Depends on how well I know the other person. But let’s expect I know him somehow, we have met before and talked but never just the two of us.

Well, I may be a bit old-fashioned but I consider going to the movies as a good date. Some people say that it’s boring because you can’t communicate with each other then, but I don’t see it that way. There’s the time before the movie – and after the movie. It’s just good that there’s some time to just be with each other, without talking, but still doing something together. There, it’s possible to hold each other’s hand without a reason and there, you can have your first (or second or whatever) kiss without the awkward silence after it – there you’re supposed to be quiet. It’s dark in there but you can still see each other if you want.

Well a perfect first date would also include a flower, but it depends how well the date knows you (if he doesn’t almost at all, he probably buys a flower you don’t even like). Going to a good restaurant is also good, but sometimes it’s hard to decide the place if you don’t know which kind of restaurant or food the other one likes.

But yes, I’m quite classic with the dating issues – movie is good as a first date. After that, when you know each other better, you can come up with something specific or different.

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I also want to update what's going on.Well I've been at work today and yesterday, today was more like Monday because everything seemed to go... not well. But this weekend I've realized how nice work colleagues I have, how well I've got adjusted to my job and that I wouldn't want to totally leave that job even though I would start an internship in the spring. But that depends on the place of the internship, I'll figure out what to do when I know more..

I'm also a bit nervous considering the upcoming week. Tomorrow we are gonna interview one professional marketer in a famous advertisement office to get a review of our project... It's exciting to go and visit the place but I'm afraid they're gonna sneer at our project and consider it pathetic :D but tomorrow is not as bad as Tuesday, when I'm going to have an internship interview...! I'm more than nervous..How can I convince them that I'm worth being recruited? Well, wish me luck. On Wed we're going to have another interview with another group and so on. The whole week is full of school stuff. And on Sat I'm going to work.

Have a nice week!  

one year

Yesterday was our 1-year anniversary with J. No gifts, it was decided, but I got a flower! It was the first time during this relationship... :D (a bit more often would be nice, just a hint...haha)

It's not often that we go to eat in a restaurant, so that's how we decided to celebrate the anniversary. There were many options but after all we turned to the Chinese restaurant which is always a good choice. The food was good and we rolled away from the restaurant as we were so full.

The last time I updated was almost a week ago, when we had the season's first snow. It didn't last long but the temperatures have stayed quite low so I guess we'll have more of it soon. On Friday we had a halloween party with some friends (and some people I didn't know before). I dressed up as a witch and my dark make up was made by a friend. First we were in one's place but then we went on to the Club Aussie Bar (in Kaisaniemi, Helsinki) where they had a good halloween party already going on. People mainly had some halloween costumes but there were also some boring ones, haha.

On Sunday I was at work and we had a rush the whole day long. I was quite exhausted when I got home. On Monday I had a long day doing school stuff, as we first had an interview with one company's sales manager, then I met a group from another course, and then I still had a lecture that lasted 'til 6pm. On Tuesday I was at school & at work, and yesterday I already told about. Today I first met one group in order to make a safety plan (of 22 pages..) for the event we are organizing. Then we had a guided tour in Paasitorni & hotel Scandic Paasi (in Hakaniemi, Helsinki), it was quite interesting and I got a business card from the marketing manager - in order to ask for possible internship possibilities. It would be so interesting to get a chance for the internship as a marketing assistant in a big company like that (consisting of hotel, restaurant, congress and event business)!

So no, I still can't say my life would be too boring, so much stuff to do. And it doesn't seem to calm down. I'm stressing about a few projects 'cause I want to get them well done, as well as about the internship thing. I have counted on the fact that I would get an internship from January onwards, but what if I don't?? I have asked from 5 places now, three of them are still open so I haven't heard from them yet, but two already answered that it's not possible. I'm still going to contact the Paasitorni's marketing manager and I'm also waiting for our school to start looking for marketing interns for the spring. I need to get an internship for the spring... But it's not easy as I know what I want and I'm quite demanding (I don't want to go to a hotel or a restaurant as many of the students from my degree; and I want to be paid for the internship - many of them are not paid). Well, let's see, I just wish I would get a positive answer soon, or at least a possibility to be interviewed!

Now I'm gonna finish with one portfolio. Wish me luck with the internship places! Bye :-)

this is waiting for me for the event we are organizing ;)

my first and last, my all and everything

You're the light at the end of the tunnel 

The beacon fire in the dark 

The glimmer of hope and truly the meaning of my life
I say this with all of my heart

You are the only one for me 

Year to year, in words and deed 

In all this chaos the trace of clarity 

You are the only one I see 

My first and last, my all and everything 

You are the one
 

When dusk falls and obscures the sky 

You're the shine of the Northern Star 

No dead of night can fade the brilliance of your light
I say this, holder of my heart

You are the only one for me 

Year to year, in words and deed 

In all this chaos the trace of clarity 

You are the only one I see 

My first and last, my all and everything 

You are the one
 

You are the only one 

In the heart of winter the comfort of the sun  

You are the one, my love

My love, you are the one

(Sentenced - You are the one) 

Happy Valentine's Day, J! You mean the world to me.

And also to all my friends - I love you, I miss you, I need you in my life. Without you all,  I wouldn't be the same.

I've never felt this way before.

 ~you make me feel...

Okay last time i wrote about happiness and the problem of defining it. well that subject had a lot to do with my current situation, because this is the first time in years that i can admit that most of the time i feel happy or lucky. last years have been so hard for me that I've always found something that ruins my feeling of being happy. of course there are things like that also now, but this feeling of happiness is kind of strong and beats the other things (usually). honestly i could divide my life into three things - being happy/lucky, being stressed because of school and work and sleeping and not thinking about anything (okay this could be combined with the first one because i feel happy when i get to sleep).

http://delacorr.deviantart.com/art/A-Love-for-the-Arts-14540763

And yeah, this feeling is due to a huge crush that I'm having. yes i admit that I've had some crushes on some people before, too, but it has never been like that. we are dating. I'm in a relationship. wait, what? me - a good example of a person who is afraid of commitment. I'm not familiar with the situation because I've never been able to go on with the dating things and so on. i think it is because I'm so afraid of losing.

~make you feel my love

But as i said - this time its different. I'm so, completely, into it and I'm so happy about it. I've found someone that makes me happy and lucky and who really cares about me - and shows it. i cant believe this is happening to me. I've never met anyone like him. its just confusing that all this is happening so fast. we had known each other (we are studying in the same place, but different fields) for about half an year but we had almost nothing to do with each other until this fall. we started chatting with each other through facebook and it wasn't long until we had set up a meeting. god i remember how nervous i was before that. i knew i was interested in him but i would never have guessed that we would end up like this - and so soon. after that first meeting between just us two, we saw each other every day for the next week. after a week from our first date, we made the decision of being in a relationship. for me it was kind of obvious already then, because i had no interest in being with anyone else but him. and i guess it was the same for him because we agreed on that matter - being single changed officially into being in a relationship - for the first time in my facebook-time. and also the first real thing that can be defined as a relationship in my life.

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Now its been over a month since i experienced all that. i can tell that it was hard to get used to the idea of NOT being single. into the idea that i have the best boyfriend in the world that cares about me and wants to be with be. that i could never let go.

~i won't let you go

And yes - I'm still leaving on January for my exchange period in Spain. Confusing. I mean its confusing that the thing you've been waiting for so long, more than anything, is now a thing that you aren't actually waiting for anymore. the thing that feels exciting but still distressing. I still don't know how we manage through that. For me, half an year is a long time, but for now its enough for me that i know that i couldn't imagine myself being with anyone else right now. i just wish that things didn't have to change even though i know they are gonna change. but i believe than we can make through my exchange period. i have a trust in our relationship. he is too good for me, and for now, i cant lose him. i just cant. i would like him to be here every minute of every hour of every day. we'll make it through!