motivation?

heeeello.

i havent been blogging because i have a huge motivation problem with EVERYTHING. if motivation can be bought somewhere, please tell me.

i started studying again about a month ago and im already pissed off with my studies. every other week i work in our school's "restaurant" (as a part of studies, without being paid...) and those days aren't always easy. the other weeks we have theory lessons and i have those even more than working in that restaurant. i cant concentrate. im not too interested in the things we go through, and even though i would be, i get depressed of all the work we have to do for our courses. at this moment my motivation is all gone and i would quit my studies if i could. the only thing that keeps my going, or should i say studying, is that there are not soooo many months any more till i go to spain for exchange. i would be so ready to go already!!

me working at school.... "good times" NOT?

on september i had quite a lot going on. i moved - again - but now im happy with where i live. i dont know how ill be able to leave this apartment when i go to spain... im also one year older now. i turned 20 about a week ago (an age crisis!) and i celebrated that with my friends last weekend.

two years ago, as i turned 18, we were in barcelona with my friend. "good times" YES!!

one thing that makes me at least a bit happier is that i started riding again. Riding has always been the only hobby that i like and it has been 11 years now since i started it. i hadnt ridden a horse for half an year but last week i had my first riding lesson again. happyface! and today was another lesson. it makes me forget all the stress etc and makes me feel better - i can feel it.

me and the pony i rented an year ago :)

whooaa i got this updated. maybe one day ill find my motivation again and update this more often. lets see about that..